I lied…

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I lied

Sometime ago, I was in a meeting, somewhat of a negotiation type, it was going so well and somewhere towards the end of the conversation, I told a lie. It didn’t start out as a blatant lie; it was a misstatement and I could tell from the way the other party to the conversation understood and responded that it was a lie. At that point, I could feel the Holy Spirit nudging me to correct the misstatement but I just didn’t at the time. Delayed obedience is same as disobedience, so I  was disobeying in addition to telling a lie.  I headed home. On my way home, I thought to place a call to address it but it was quite late at the time.

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My heart was so heavy, why did I tell that lie? Yes it appeared to give me a little advantage but it was a lie regardless making me lose my peace. I said to myself that I would just ignore subsequent discussions at least that could be my way of paying for the lie, especially if I lost the potential benefit that would have accrued from it. It was the easier way; no way I wanted to call to admit that I had told a lie. I spoke to my sister and my mum, I still had no peace. Not sure if I really slept that night. I told God how sorry I was, I knew I had repented but I was not ready to restitute. And my pride? Better to just address it like a mistake and say to them subsequently that I was no longer interested in the discussion. God didn’t like that suggestion clearly because my peace vanished.

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As I drove to work the next day, a verse of scripture dropped on my heart; it was heavy like lead “For he said, Surely they are my people, children that will not lie: so he was their Saviour”. Isaiah 63:8. I knew there and then I had to admit that I had told a lie. My relationship with God was too important to consider my ego, but the challenge was how. I thought to book an appointment in order to address it face to face but that would have taken time and I might have lost my resolve. So I prayed and asked God for grace to do what was right.

As soon as it was 8am, I called; there was no response so I sent an sms to say that I would like to speak with the person concerned. That was it; die was cast, no turning back. I was going to admit that I had misstated facts and deal it. Now, this was not an easy decision, it could have turned out really messy and I was well aware of several unsavoury potential results of going ahead with my decision to tell the truth.

Guess what?

He called back and I could just feel God’s grace with me to tell him exactly how I felt. You know what he said? He said he had called someone else and the person said, ‘She’s either mistaken or she is telling a lie,’ and so he was going to call me to confirm the information. Imagine if he called me first, what kind of testimony would that have been? God was so faithful, as the respect the man accorded me after that conversation was thrice the respect I got before it, and best of all, my peace returned. That heavy weight rolled off my shoulders. I lost nothing in the physical, not the opportunity nor the relationship, and I learned to be more careful how I presented matters.

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Sin is not worth it, neither is grieving the Holy Spirit.  The loss of peace alone almost drove me crazy. Looking back now, I am so grateful to God for the Holy Spirit that convicts me of sin, as that is the only way to walk towards pleasing God.  I am grateful for that silent nudge that prompts me to obey God exactly, that convicts me when I do wrong, Oh how it has been saving me from shipwrecking my relationship with God. Trusting that this encourages one more person to respond immediately the spirit convicts, trust me, that peace is not something you want to lose.

How do you respond when convicted of sin?

Have a presence filled week ahead and God bless you!

@eloxie

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16 comments to I lied…

  • JMD  says:

    BEAUTIFUL… Conviction… Correction… this is the Spirit…when we fail to yield, we bring ourselves into condemnation! kudos madam!

    • Stupendous Grace  says:

      Thank you JMD, that really is it. When we fail to yield, we will face condemnation. God bless you.

  • naijawife  says:

    I feel the same way. It weighs down on me so heavily when I sin. I lose sleep and my thoughts keep circulating over and over on it… It’s really not worth it.

    • Stupendous Grace  says:

      Thanks dear NW, it truly is not worth it. God bless you and keep your spirit sensitive to God’s voice. Amen!

  • Theresa Doghor  says:

    I run to God
    I make amends
    I am not the kind of person who fights with others
    So I generally make peace.

    yeah
    Have I had times I disobeyed
    Yeah
    The price was God’s silence.

    • Stupendous Grace  says:

      Fantastic. I bless God for you.

  • buqie  says:

    I feel this way as well. Sometimes i have this battle going on in my mind, i try to justify why i said what i said or convince myself that though what i said is not the truth, it is still not a lie in totalty. But guess what? the web just keeps getting bigger and bigger and once you tell a lie, you have to keep on telling lies to cover up the initial lie or just come out with the truth.

    I’ve learnt though and I’m still learning that nothing can be compared to my relationship with God. Coming out with the truth might have consequences but it is always worth it. Big or small, lies are lies.

    Thank God for the Holy Spirit.

  • highlandblue  says:

    One line. Sin is not worth it. I’m glad you stumbled on the confession and restitution part. So many people (I included) would very much love to skip that part because of pride as you rightly identified. Why are you repenting and holding on to your pride? How can repentance be genuine then? If really you have gotten over it, you should confess and make restitution. Thank you for this

    • Stupendous Grace  says:

      You are welcome. I truly agree with you, how can repentance be genuine if I’m holding onto my pride? If I am truly repentant, i should be able to confess and make a restitution. God help us not to reason away what we should do because of pride. Amen!

    • Olu  says:

      Word!

  • enajyte  says:

    ” I am grateful for that silent nudge that prompts me to obey God exactly, that convicts me when I do wrong, Oh how it has been saving me from shipwrecking my relationship with God. ”

    When I was younger, I used to wonder why me Lord? Why is it that things other people do and feel nothing, I’ll do it and it’d feel like I’m carrying Mt Everest on my shoulders? Things that other people do and get away with, it’s always me that’d get caught.

    Till I realised it’s for my good. And I’ve come to appreciate that silent nudge that says, ‘Jite, that was so wrong. Fix it.’

    It’s often hard to fix, especially in situations where it involves others, as with telling a lie, but, I find instead of shame/embarrassment, the over ride is always peace. And joy.

    My prayer remains: Lord, may I never become comfortable with sin.

    • Stupendous Grace  says:

      “Lord, may I never become comfortable with sin” AMEN!!! My dear, I am glad for you, glad for the silent nudge that convicts you of wrongdoing and the peace that comes with doing right. God bless you.

    • Olu  says:

      Amen to that!

  • Ekeh, James obi  says:

    lie is a sin,lt sets one apart from God. Anytime l lie,l become uncomfortable with myself.

  • Margaret  says:

    Amazing….Where have you been all my life? This is the kind of feeding my spirit needed all this while. Reality meets scripture. SIN IS NOT WORTH IT.

  • Olu  says:

    Beautiful…the kind of peace nobody wants to lose

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